I competed in a fitness competition last weekend for the first time ever! It was soooo scary! My cheeks (butt and face) were shaking on stage. I went through many emotions (and flexing poses), and I have needed this whole week to gather my thoughts around it.
I dieted and worked out like a maniac for 10 weeks and it was so worth it. The morning of the show, I loved the results! However, after stepping on stage I felt shame and guilt. The judges re-positioned me on stage and I realized I was being moved into the, She-is-not-even-being-considered-category. My initial thoughts were, “I am not good enough. I needed to diet better, exercised more, I should have done this.. or that..(insert excuse here)…”
You get the picture. Those negative thoughts are SO unhealthy. Luckily, I caught them and said, “STFU”. I gathered up my courage, put on my big girl panties, and smiled with the rest of them. I ended up cheering on the other girls that I met backstage and having a fun time.
I ended up placing last in both the figure and fitness model categories. Dead last. And guess what? I am totally, 100% okay with that. I stepped out on stage in heels and a TINY, pink bikini! WHAT?! That is bravery. That is courage. THAT is success!
I realized that losing at something does not make you a failure. In fact, I am a winner. I have learned so much from this process. Next time, I anticipate even greater success. I am down for another competition in April and ready to succeed (first or last place!).
Believe in yourself and go for you dreams.
Living in fear is the worst thing you can do for yourself.
Love, Katie xo